EVALUATION

My days at the ranch are very numbered. In fact I count them on one hand. Two days.
And surprisingly I'm ready. Mentally, emotionally, spirtitually, physically.

Physically, my room is mostly packed up. The only stuff left is clothing etc that I'll use in the next couple days.

Mentally, I'm counting down hours until my family gets here. (17 hrs) I'm so excited to show them my home. No one really gets this place unless you've been here and even with them coming for 2 days I'm hoping they'll at least understand it a little. Not they don't understand but it's more like they just can't. Everytime I walk around the ranch these days I try and picture it through their eyes.

Spiritually, all I can say is that God's love and grace is sufficent. That's it. I've had countless examples of that for the past year and I feel like he's prepared me to face the Real World and whatever it throws at me for now.

Emotionally, I'm already feeling the disconnect that is going to be completly necessary soon. Half of my support system here has already gone home. The new crowd of staff is moving in. And I feel myself purposedly not making big emotional connections to any of them because I know I'm leaving. Plus I feel like JVL has done all it can do for me right now. I love this place and everything it represents, but at this point in my life I'm ready to move on. That doesn't mean I'll never come back because I really don't know what the future holds for me. Trusting God here.
That being said I will miss it all. And it definitely will hurt when I do leave. But that's something that's worth what I got.